
Alexander Formos & Eurydice Eloise Wayles
spiritual writings and shamanic healings
The Spiritual Design of Sex Work
by Alexander Formos, Emilia Aurelia May & Eurydice Eloise Wayles
Excerpts from "The Shamanic Healing Journey of Soulmates in Love" /2024/
and "A Secret Diary of a Whore" /2026/
April 2025
Nature has created two female archetypes of sex work, and they are different in their essence. These are essentially two distinct professions, but simultaneously, two necessary polarities, like two sides of one coin. We are calling one of them a “sexual priestess” and the other a “sacred prostitute.” As my soul lived both experiences, I can attest from my memories that even the bodies of these two women are designed differently on physical, psychological, emotional, and spiritual levels. Both women perform different societal roles yet fulfill complementary psychological, spiritual, emotional, and sexual needs. Both have equally valuable and important missions, but these roles have entirely different challenges, so these women received distinctly unique personal skills and talents upon birth to be successful in their work. Nature also designed these women to walk a spiritual path as they learn how to practice their craft in the most empowered way. Through sex work, they gain supernatural powers like clairvoyance, heightened intuition, energy-healing talents, and oracle powers.
Both women are created upon birth to be the channels of divine, universal love, but if we try to explain the core of their essences in simple words, I would say that a sacred prostitute sells love through sex, while a sexual priestess sells love through relationships. In the ideal world, these two professions coexist and empower one another. Say, if we are building a temple for sexual healing arts, there should be a sacred brothel erected right next to it.
In our present reality, we can say that commercial sex work of escorts, somatic bodyworkers, and intimacy coaches employs sexual priestesses, while sacred prostitutes work on the streets and in brothels, massage parlors, or strip clubs. Part of the experience of living the archetype of a sacred prostitute requires a woman to be driven to this work for survival. Such motivation is an integral part of her fate that she can’t avoid, but her challenges on this path and conflicting emotions associated with being dependent on this work or her clients temper her essence and nobility. They empower her to embody her highest truth through her unique spiritual journey. Being a whore is an initiation of a sacred prostitute into her second profession, which she is destined to assume later on her path, as she is essentially designed to live two different lives, and both careers are her highest purposes on Earth in such a life. She learns about people and herself through sex work so she can shine brighter in her other profession.
Sexual priestesses usually have a fate with a lifelong dedication to the craft, either as a provider or a teacher. In contrast, sacred prostitutes always have limited time in their sex career (with the period usually outlined on a soul level), as it’s a more energetically draining craft. Sacred prostitute processes more masculine darkness in her work, but the spiritual void in her womb was gifted to her at birth specifically for this challenge, allowing Nature to eliminate dark masculine energies through her to prevent any violence or destruction. The destiny of a sacred prostitute implies experiencing more instances of abuse and submission compared to a sexual priestess, as well as enduring sex against the will in order to survive. In the life of a sacred prostitute that my soul experienced, even the instances of rape that Astarte experienced were designed by Nature as a part of her initiations into the full power of her psychic abilities.
The saddest thing about present-day sex work is that this consumerist society produced a third archetype that is not supposed to exist in the world. Now, we have women who engage in sex work because they believe they need luxury shoes and purses to discover themselves or magically become better than others. Only these women are not authorized by Nature to perform sex work. Their bodies are not designed to process the energies that accompany this craft. If the body of a woman, for example, was created to live the life of an archetypical mother, then her womb doesn’t have a void to absolve masculine darkness, and her psyche can only handle intimacy with one man at a time. Therefore, she can’t process the emotional reality of having multiple lovers. So, these complicated emotions would be suppressed in her subconscious mind, leading to psychological and emotional traumas and, most likely, to a soul dissolution.
Such women burn out and destroy their aura very quickly because they don’t understand that sex work is a calling of a soul, not an opportunistic choice to elevate their social status or receive validation from powerful men through sex and access to special or secret events. They naively think that sex work is an easy profession that brings easy money, but they only damage their souls and their energy bodies in the process. These women also taint society’s perceptions of sex work, as they are prostitutes in the worst meaning of this word. They are not interested in understanding their essence and using this profession to escape the natural purposes of their souls. Society mainly perceives sex workers in negative ways because of these women. They are trying to hijack reality and bypass their destined challenges in life with the help of corrupt men.
Nature is actively working to weed out such sex workers in one way or the other, as these women make the life of authentic whores more challenging by ruining the natural balance of offerings. Nature can do it in many ways, but for example, my job is to be the eyes of the Spirits on the ground. If I encounter such a provider, I always report my observations to the Spirits, who decide how they would like to punish such a woman. But these women usually punish themselves because they sacrifice their highest destiny and their mental health (as the unprocessed emotions in the form of nightmares and anxieties would hunt them for years to come) for some meaningless trinkets they can brag about on social media. And any wealth they may have accumulated through this work, bypassing their destined path, would be inevitably taken away from them in one way or another.
If we are talking about my spiritual initiations performed in the ancient traditions of temple arts, they were only possible through commercial sex work. The arrangements that can be potentially built with escorts or intimacy coaches are the closest representation of the traditional temple work of ancient civilizations. Selling relationships was the highest art practiced by sexual goddesses because relationships are the fastest way for people to grow spiritually. Every type of sex work has its inner complexities, dynamics, and challenges. There’s a certain element of privilege in these kinds of sex work, but that privilege comes with more demanding professional integrity and higher responsibility for the well-being of a client (obviously, the price of engagement should reflect that). The natural challenges and complications of building a relationship start to get involved. Yet, the complexities of communication and explorations of different types of sessions become an essential part of the sexual healing journey both for a client and a provider.
People on the path of spiritual development crave complex and authentic relationships in different forms and with various people because they know how much they advance in their truth through building relationships with the divine polarity. In that sense, relationships can be seen as the highest commodity on the path of spiritual awakening, and sexual priestesses were aware of that at all times. Sexual energy exchanges occur in many different forms during the healing journey with a client, not only through the act of sex. Creating authentic relationships and teaching how to build them was one of the main programs in temples of sexual healing arts. It is a true definition of intimacy coaching. Such settings imply a certain level of trust and respect, as there's a possibility to explore the complex dynamics that always emerge between two unique people when they engage in relationships and discover a deeper level of intimacy beyond sex itself.
People who present sex work as a fun way to escape everyday troubles, secretly cheat on their spouses, or make it only about physical pleasures devalue the magic of this craft, embolden critics, and push away noble clients who seek true growth through the exploration of subtle, spiritual human bodies. It’s pretty disrespectful to assume that men see sex workers only to have sex. There are too many reasons why seeing an escort may be the only option for a man to connect with a woman.
Men seek companionship in hopes of receiving the energies of female nourishment, care, and inspiration so they can discover more confidence in their destined work and energize themselves to continue on their highest path by honoring the perceptions and advice of a woman. Men might not be able to talk through their emotions with their friends or a regular therapist but may find it easier to work through their issues in the sessions with a sexual priestess. It’s also often the case when a man doesn’t have a single woman in his life who can provide him a non-judgemental space to discuss his ideas for work, challenge his truth in empowering ways, or help him understand himself better through explorations of desires or fulfillment of certain erotic or sensual needs. Or, like in my case, a man may be required to walk a part of his masculine journey alone and have to be spiritually initiated through the magic of sexual healing arts.
I’m arriving at a session with a sexual priestess, having an aspiration to discover myself through openness to life and intuitive, devotional interactions with a unique woman who hopefully honors my truth like I’m honoring hers. I enjoy such settings as I don’t need to pretend to be someone I’m not, and I don’t need to lie. I would claim that any lies remove the sacredness from the bedroom. So, in that sense, an intimate encounter with a sexual priestess is more sacred in nature than any casual sex or one-night stand (as such arrangements can be only secured with lies) because both lovers can clearly state their intentions for the interaction before proceeding with any intimacy.
I believe that the highest sexual healing is only possible when I can be emotionally open and vulnerable in exploring the intricate complexities of our personal, evolving relationship, uniquely created for only two of us. The rules of engagement with a sexual priestess could only be determined through honest dialogue, as the bedroom is her territory, and she should invite a man into her temple only on her preferred conditions, boundaries, and pacing. The explorations of relationships could be more nuanced when both partners work on emotional connection and clear communication over several sessions while building trust and learning about each other’s personalities and bodies. Conversations and social interactions in such settings may provide deeper healing. Learning to honestly talk about personal perceptions of intimacy and clearly express arising sensations becomes part of the healing journey for a client. So there’s an aspiration to be met in your truth, accepted for who you are, and maybe even have some room to fail if the feelings become too confusing for one of the partners. Therefore, avoiding damaging a client is the only ethical aspect that truly matters in this work.
A sexual priestess is confident of meeting their clients in everything that they are. If we are talking about empowering temple work, there’s an expectation that a client may fall in love with a priestess to achieve the goals of his healing or receive the initiations into destined spiritual talents. There are two main requirements that any woman needs for sex magic to work - she has to feel absolutely safe in her everyday life and surroundings (that’s why the personal temple space is so essential for a sexual priestess to feel empowered in this craft) but also feel loved or at least appreciated by a partner. So, it’s impossible to expect the highest result from sex work if a client does not have some honest feelings for a provider (at least a crush or admiration). A sexual priestess knows that she is lovable for every facet of her being; she expects clients to be infatuated by her essence, personality, and body. She is a goddess of love, after all, so surely she should be aware that men easily fall for her.
When meeting with a sexual goddess, I always hope to hear her honest opinions, insights, testaments, perspectives, and passionate disagreements during our time together. I aspire to experience a genuine interaction with a woman who is confident in her truth. I wish to be challenged by a free and empowered woman, as that’s how I discover hidden parts of my being, grow in my talents, receive new spiritual knowledge, and learn to avoid the pitfalls of my masculine ego. I only discovered the most profound truths about the essence of life through open dialogue and inspiring debates.
It’s a pity when a goddess thinks she should silence her opinion, pretend to be an object, or say what she believes a man wants to hear from her. It is not her job to create a fantasy for clients (only if they both decide to explore their connection through role play and agree on such a path in advance). Men visit her because she knows more about life, love, relationships, and sex than most women. A goddess respects herself too much to lie and manipulate her clients, as she also intends to grow and heal through any relationships that Nature blesses her (and Nature loves challenging sex workers on their path for their highest growth as she knows they can handle it).
A true magician can receive spiritual seals through study and practice, but there’s also a way to embody these divine energies through sex magic based on true love and explore them through inner awareness. This magic doesn’t work if partners are not in love with each other. The embodiment of divine, heavenly deities or ascended masters is the highest purpose and the primary pursuit of sex magic. Through a spiritual and erotic adventure with a sexual priestess over a series of sessions, a client embodies a specific archetypical light of a particular God-Goddess. Any highest spiritual explorations of sex imply learning about such a path if we are talking about sexual alchemy, either in Tantric, Egyptian, Celtic, Toltec, or any other ancient traditions.
Allowing gods to take over the body through lovemaking rituals is the highest aspiration of sexual exchanges and the most advanced spiritual work available through sexual healing arts. The main benefits arrive through integration after sexual rituals, which may take months of personal work through explorations of another essence and personal acceptance. An initiate observes life from a completely different point of view, almost like becoming an entirely different soul for a period of integration.
The love story of two physical people actually becomes a love story between divine deities. So, for an initiate of the temple arts, the sessions with a sexual priestess turn into a love affair with the Goddess that lives through her. Therefore, it doesn’t matter what kind of a session a client would have with a sexual priestess - a sexual encounter, a dinner date, or just a friendly walk in a park - each of these dates would unfold by natural design in the ways that gods would choose to live through these two particular lovers, who have unique souls.
A sexual priestess also follows the natural flow of the connection (allowing a client to highlight different facets of her essence), as each client embodies a different divine archetype and, therefore, would interact with her in the ways that his essence commands, consequently making her shine differently with every client. Gods overtake the bodies of initiates, but partners can observe, digest, and embody the facets they find empowering for them. Any spiritual seal contains both feminine and masculine energies of the same light, as they co-exist in union and essentially represent one divine frequency or essence, experiencing separation only to complement each other.
That’s why a magician can’t complete all spiritual initiations with one woman: a mystical initiate must experience what it’s like to live as various gods (as if becoming a soul with an entirely different life purpose and embodying another divine light). Therefore, an initiate would need to find a woman with a soul that carries the light of the consort Goddess of any ascended deity or master they are required to work with on their path of self-mastery into any craft they are destined to pursue in life. For example, if a man has a fate to govern others, it’s important for him to work with Horus; for a military man, it may be valuable to work with Seth; if he is destined to write or share knowledge, then he might explore the connection with Thoth and so forth (of course these can be deities from other lineages representing the same divine skills or essences).
An initiate must commit to an intimate journey with a woman who carries the light of Isis if he wishes to receive the seal of Osiris-Isis. Obtaining the seal of Horus-Hathor would be only possible through a woman with a Hathor’s soul, and so forth… So, if we are talking about a temple of sexual arts in its ultimate design, it should employ women with archetypical souls of every important Goddess so that any initiate has an opportunity to experience an intimate journey in one safe space instead of searching through the city or even province to find a goddess they need. That’s why people in ancient times revered sexual healing artists as goddesses; they knew that the souls of such women represented and embodied the divine energies of different Goddesses. Again, there was no shame or judgment of this craft because there was no spiritual ignorance.
While an initiate experiences a spiritual journey with a sexual priestess, the soul receives the magical talents of a particular deity to advance in their spiritual growth. Through my explorations, I learned that it requires a series of sessions and at least six months of personal spiritual work to receive and fully embody any spiritual seal. The Spirits requested that I embody six spiritual seals as part of my shamanic education to receive the talents that would get me where they wished me (and make me the best version of myself). But even a journey with two or three different Goddesses would advance any man on their path to noble empowerment and higher purpose.
Sexual priestesses are in the business of selling relationships because a man needs time to experience any divine Goddess so he can understand her essence and observe the facets of her truth in his being while opening himself up to experience the masculine light of the same nature. He must spend time with her in different ways, on different days, and when she’s in different moods, as that’s the only way to face the Goddess in all of her glory. She becomes his true consort and challenges him as if she is his destined wife for the time they are together. Of course, we have to understand that a sexual priestess should be initiated into her natural, archetypical goddess energy of her own soul to perform this work (if she is honest with herself and walks her spiritual path with integrity, then Nature would present her with these initiations even without her awareness as it happened with my soulmates). That’s another reason why the temple spaces are essential for the empowering future of sexual healing arts, as, without initiations, this magic can never be truly embodied, and a sexual priestess may stay only a woman who sells sex or her company.
In ancient Egypt, during the most advanced period of that unique civilization, sexual healing artists were considered nobility and had their own magical temples to perform this sacred work. Whores were reverenced and admired for their unique talents because people still believed in the divine order of Nature and honored life in all of its manifestations. Sexuality and spirituality existed in the balanced union to assist people in reaching divine planes of consciousness and elevate them on their paths toward their highest purpose.
In the temples of sexual healing arts, sexual priestesses initiated men into their king's energy and transmuted negative vibrations through the magical void of their supernatural wombs. They alchemized the harshest pains, released stress, resolved emotional distress, and absolved masculine darkness to protect the world from destruction. They healed wounds of past lives and charged the energy bodies of their clients through sex magic. They revived marriages, empowered merchants, advised politicians, uplifted traumatized soldiers and inspired artists and engineers with incredible creations. They illuminated the world with magic, beauty, and joy. I simply knew that in all of human history, whores magically enriched the world with their sacred wombs and radiating hearts, so the spiritual ignorance and religious prejudice of Canadian society meant nothing to me.
The way society perceives sex work shows its level of spiritual awareness about the nature of life. One can understand everything about the maturity of a nation by learning the opinions on sex work and general perceptions of sexuality, as well as by studying the personal stories of sex workers. Sexual energies are the most powerful energies available to humans, and they can either enrich or destroy us. In any genuinely advanced culture, sexual healing arts are always at the forefront of society and are always accessible to everyone for healing, spiritual awakening, and personal empowerment.
There’s no shame or judgment because there’s no ignorance. There’s a universal understanding that suppressed sexuality would inevitably turn into a destructive force and create unnecessary damage to individuals and society. People turn to perversions, hedonism, and inner corruption when their natural sexual needs are not explored in empowering ways. It was also self-evident that the highest advancement in knowledge, science, business, creativity, and spirituality can only be achieved through the magic of sexual alchemy, where two opposite polarities join in energy exchanges of sex magic so they can reach divinity and co-create something bigger than themselves.
Throughout human history, tyrannical societies and oppressive ideologies shamed sex and, especially, female sexual pleasures, as that was the easiest way to enslave people. But men and women don’t need self-appointed, fanatical, and dogmatic intermediaries to connect them with the divinity when they have sex magic. People can access the God-Goddess energies and reach the highest planes of consciousness through explorations of female pleasures because Nature designed women to be actual, legitimate pastors for divinity.
Orgasmic collisions empowered by love liberate humans and charge their auras so that fear and anxiety can never penetrate them. Sexual healing helps them to shine with their highest truth, embrace their essence, live in their power, and act from the heart. It’s impossible to control someone’s sense of sovereignty and inner feeling of freedom when their auras are spiritually enriched and energetically protected through sexual alchemy and empowered explorations of sexual desires.
Experiencing at least one life as a sex worker is an obligation on the path of any soul that embodies the archetypical light of any divine Goddess that governs the expressions of human sexuality, love, and death, like Isis, Mary Magdalene, Sophia, Nephtys, Hathor, etc. or Goddesses of the similar essences from other cultures and lineages. By following their spiritual path, sexual priestesses are destined to explore unique nuances of feminine experience through their craft, heal the burdens of their society, and help stranded souls embrace their essence.
Beyond the soul’s destined obligation to experience a life of a whore, it’s also important to understand that each body is born on a spectrum of sexuality, with drastically different sexual needs, intentionally designed in such a way by Nature to fulfill special purposes. As most people embody sexual energies in the middle of the spectrum and closer to the asexual polarity, it’s challenging for them to understand the motivations of highly sexual people. Hence, they tend to perceive the natural sexual expressions of highly sexual people as promiscuity, lust, or a lack of inner discipline and morals.
Only judging a highly sexual person for having multiple lovers is like judging an asexual person for not desiring sex at all. It’s completely impossible to explain the needs of one body when another person lives in vastly different sensuality, sensibility, and sensitivity because of the soul’s highest choices. People are born different because we all have our roles to play in this magical theatre of life, and like everyone else, both asexual and highly sexual people have a higher purpose in life behind their seemingly unordinary and complex nature.
Many shamans, energy healers, spiritual instructors, massage therapists, and other similar professionals are gifted with highly sexual energies to channel the required healing for their clients. They do not have sex with clients, but they do sex work on soul and energy body levels. My personal healing practices, like the art of dreaming, energy body healing, or death journeys, also require having a body with highly sexual energies. So, for me, it’s pretty amusing to observe how Christians comically fight for pretentious norms and morals to suppress natural human sexuality when the art of resurrection, the main talent of their supposedly worshipped deity, is only accessible with the help of sex magic. If Yeshua hadn’t been a highly sexual person and hadn’t charged his energy body through lovemaking rituals with his beloved wife, Mary Magdalen, he wouldn’t have been able to heal people, perform shamanic miracles, and return safely from death.
Any oppressive society wins when they push sex workers into hiding, but a whore knows in her heart that she was born to be a whore, so there are no other arguments to be made. Most medical doctors, priests, teachers, lawyers, accountants, politicians, and journalists have less integrity than most whores that I know. People in those professions are real prostitutes because they will sell their truth, convictions, love, and even their souls to the highest bidder without even thinking. So why do we still listen to their pretentious morality and, more importantly, respect and value them more than sex workers?
For my soulmates and me, the fight for the divine truth would not end with the decriminalization of sex work or more acceptance of this craft. Nature designed sex workers as nobility and gave them more unique talents at birth than other women because they have higher obligations to Nature and humanity. So, I hope to see a day when sex workers will re-claim the superior rights and status that Nature granted them. And I hope to see the restoration of temples of sexual healing arts, where people can explore the middle path for sex and finally heal their broken nature. Both sexual indulgence and abstinence are manifestations of suppressed sexuality and imposed shame of human nature. Neither path brings empowerment to a human being. But we finally have a chance to remove those shackles of the destructive perceptions and norms of sexuality created by the old militant doctrines that were designed to turn people into slaves.
Excerpt from an unpublished book “A Secret Diary of a Whore”
Through regressions and death journeys, I also discovered that Alex accepted me in the same way when I was a sex worker in our past lives. I asked my beloved man why it was so. He told me that every soul has its higher purpose, and if sex magic aligns with a soul’s evolutionary journey, then they are required to live at least one life as a whore to achieve the highest growth. Alex can see the highest potential of a soul’s evolution, their unique essence, and the divine archetypical energies they transmit into the world. When we met, Alex saw that my soul carries the light of Mary Magdalene, so it was not surprising to him that I battled with my intense sexual energies. He knew that deep in my heart I was both a virgin and a whore. I didn’t even need to tell him that. He knew my strengths and weaknesses before I even opened up to him with all my vulnerabilities. He knew that any woman with a Magdalene soul was destined to experience a life of whore and become spiritually initiated through living this destiny. I felt foolish that I tried to hide my essence, as he was already aware of all facets of my being. Nothing I described about my experiences surprised him and only helped him to advance my healing.
I immediately wanted to learn more about other souls with such a fate and gathered any knowledge that I could with the help of my beloved man. Humans can be born with a highly sexual body, but we also possess a destiny that can be associated with sex magic and sexual temple arts. A balanced human tends to the needs of both body and soul equally for greater empowerment, yet we often struggle to find that equilibrium. Understanding the essence of my soul was vital for me, as I ceased to shame myself once I realized who I truly was. Certain souls inevitably inhabit a highly sexual body to embrace the path of a sexual healer or sex worker.
Different cultures have their archetypical gods and goddesses of sexual healing and love. Hence, souls who embody these energies or represent the light of these beings in our physical world carry such divine sexual talents within them. The souls with the essences of sky, forest, earth, and water nymphs can be sex workers. Their purpose is to inspire humans and paint our world with luminous colors, so they can do this through sexual energies as well. The souls with archetypical energies of witches, oracles, and sirens carry sexual healing abilities. The souls that embody the female nourishing energies of vegetation, blossoming, and similar essences of the Gaia Sophia force of our Mother Nature can also live the life of a sexual healer. Of course, the souls that carry energies of powerful deities, like Mary Magdalene, Yeshua, Isis, Hathor, Nephthys, Imentet, and deities of similar spectrums of light of other lineages (like Kali-Ma in Hinduism or Aphrodite in Greek mythology) have access to a unique and even supernatural understanding of sexuality. Charged with the knowledge of ancient traditions and their ascended protectors, such souls can naturally heal through sex magic and sexual energy exchange once they step into their full power. If other souls described above may choose to come as sexual healers, the souls who carry the light of divine deities governing energies of love, relationships, and sexuality, are bound to be whores at least in one lifetime, and they are simply obliged to follow such a destiny. As a soul has free will, they still can choose which life they would live in the body of a sexual healing artist, but they must do this at least once.
I would like to state that in my perception, any divine deity is a force field, a vibrational frequency of a specific spectrum of divine light, or an energy pattern of awareness possessing a vaster consciousness than that of a soul. The pantheon of gods represents the whole picture and complexity of joined force fields in our world and consists of the spectrum of possible human experiences. Thus, gods in any pantheon should not be taken literally but as metaphors representing individual energy fields or divine light that empower different souls who embody their essence on Earth. Each soul comes to carry a specific divine light of oneness, so descriptions of gods help us better understand each other. We are fractions of eternity and carry a piece of the universal divine light of existence. Still, to describe our particular essence and the personality of a soul, we rely on the stories about gods. Therefore, if a soul carries a specific, archetypical frequency of a particular aspect of existence, it is bound to live in the stories and legends of divine deities. Each soul representing each spectrum must endure the challenges and tribulations that are archetypal to the essence of the divine deity. Each soul is like a spiritual child, an ambassador of an ascended master in our physical reality. We don’t need to connect directly to the Goddess Mary Magdalene, if we can connect with a woman who carries a soul of her light into the world.
As an esoteric priestess in training, I aim to understand the symbolic meaning of these force fields of light, and I can only encourage you to perceive them the same way. We are living in a holographic world, where only the perception of an experience of the subject, in our case, a soul, creates physical reality. The experience of perception is determined by the essence of the archetypal energy emitted to the world and shared with humanity from the Heavens. For example, a man with Yeshua’s soul can never escape the experience of being ostracized or punished by society for speaking his truth. He would live a story of an outcast in one form or another, and only his divine twin flame, a female partner of his light, could protect and heal him from the abuses of the world. A woman with an Isis soul would always be bound to lose the love of her life, as she needs to experience what Isis felt when burying Osiris.
These are just two examples of the embodied destiny of a soul over which humans have no control. These experiences must occur regardless because their souls chose to live such a story. In this sense, reflecting on my archetype, I can now assert that I would have never stepped into my power if I hadn’t personally experienced what it felt like when people threw stones at Mary Magdalene, wanting to kill her for serving Nature with her radiating heart and supernatural womb. A woman with such a soul is destined to undergo experiences where she voluntarily gives her body away to others, often against her own free will. But following the destiny of a soul is an ultimate expression of free will. Our will allows us to surrender to our highest fate and ultimate experience, and we know that we can only become ourselves by shedding our egos that want us to do whatever we want and simply spend our lives in pleasure, indulgence, and joy. Yet true free will is embracing the divine nature of our essence, which means following our soul's ultimate destiny. I needed to experience what it’s like to feel like a fallen woman, not because society saw me as such, but because I had to endure that perception of reality to convince myself that I’m a fallen woman in my own understanding of that word, where it feels like everyone is shaming and punishing me for my essence.
It is also important to note that I carry a specific purpose in my sex work compared to other souls who are also obliged to live the destiny of a sex worker. For example, my dear friend and co-creator of this book, Emilia, is a soul that carries the light of Mary Magdalene of Love. Since she is also a sex worker, she is designed to be a channel of love in this world, so she channels love to her clients through sex to give them more love. Even though, as any whore, I was eqaully created to be a channel of divine love, I give this love to clients to bring them death. It may be a financial, mental, emotional, or spiritual death, like the death of an ego. But it can equally be a physical death if a soul is ready to transition, so such men would inevitably die after having sex with me in one moment in the future.
By ordering my services and sleeping with me, souls of such men ask my permission to initiate the death of their body, and if I feel like they are ready to die, I help them to begin this process. My past lives is a living testament of that truth, as I literally killed some men with my own hands after having sex with them. This is my power in this world, but it’s equally my purpose and responsibility. Some, like Emilia, came into this world to elevate people’s understanding of love, but some, like me, arrived to assist people through the process of death. And since I’m a Magdalene soul, I guide them towards and through death with love, forgiveness, and compassion. Since any Magdalene soul is a teacher in their highest essence, I teach souls to embrace death with reverence and navigate in that state of existence. I am a beautiful, graceful, and gentle guide of death, but still, this is my primary purpose in this life, as someone simply has to do this job. I deeply care about my men and always facilitate the transition they deserve. This is how Nature designed me to be, and if a man's soul chooses to leave this plane, Nature guides this man to book a session with me.
My soul’s lineage comes from ancient Egypt, so I’m connected to that pantheon of gods and goddesses. I’m also linked to the pantheon described by the ancient Greek civilization, and I occasionally work with souls of that lineage. However, if you, dear reader, feel drawn to any other culture, those pantheons are likely more in tune with your soul’s lineage, and you should explore deities who resonate with you. We intuitively know what kind of light or being we represent in our essence and carry into this world.
There’s no actual benefit in learning about energy beings or divine deities from all cultures on this planet. Curiosity and exploration may lead you to know more about distant cultures, but there’s no right or wrong pantheon- just the one that resonates with you. Essentially, all pantheons describe the same types of essences. That’s why you can find gods in almost all cultures depicting and representing the energy of Yeshua or Christ's consciousness. It is not the case that someone appropriated a god from a previous culture; rather, priests of different civilizations could perceive the same fields of energy, but they assigned them various names and slightly different descriptions. We use names to describe gods so that we can explain to each other what type of energy we are working with.
I made another fascinating discovery during my healing journey. I learned that if you lived one life as a sex worker, you would be destined to live another life as an asexual person, since both bodies shine with equally powerful spiritual experiences. That’s how Nature maintains balance. In this sense, that’s why Mary Magdalene is also considered to be an innocent virgin, as souls of this essence must live at least one life as an asexual. This is how the highest growth of a soul is attained, through exploring complementary and opposite experiences.
I also discovered that a soul could carry highly sexual energies while the vessel would not. The conflicting sexual duality between a soul and a body puzzled me. On my path of explorations, I met two sexual healers who didn’t have bodies of whores. Both women had low sexual energies in their physical bodies, while their souls were highly sexual and shared those energies with clients. One worked as a massage therapist, and another was an energy healer. While their bodies performed regular work like any other professional in their fields, their souls would make love with the souls of their clients, enriching each other’s energy bodies. On a physical level, there was nothing sexual between the practitioner and client, yet on a soul level, orgasmic energies filled both beings as they surrendered to their exchanges. It was one of the most fascinating experiences I've seen in my practice. It was so interesting to observe how a soul can be a sex worker while their body doesn’t crave sexual pleasures that much. Once again, life showed me how uniquely different we are created for divine reasons. We can magically heal each other if we live in our truth and are not ashamed to share our highest talents with others.
If we practice acceptance of Nature and respect her unique design, we can also see that beyond the soul’s purpose, every human is born in a specific body with particular talents, and all we can do is honor our essence. The challenge may be reversed to assist the soul’s evolution. A soul would not exist in sexual vibrations and yet arrive to live in a highly sexual body, creating disharmony that empowers them through a contradictory experience born from some level of suffering. Experiences such as tragic deaths, rape, near-death events, and other traumatic occurrences exist to initiate a soul into their higher power. A life of emotional imprisonment and painful contradictions can endow a soul with new spiritual powers on its evolutionary journey. In our story, it simply means that a soul can choose to live the life of a sex worker with the intent to become lost on the way through abusive experiences while also enduring the pains of feeling ostracized, judged, and punished for such a unique female destiny.
Having a more profound understanding of the many choices souls make on their paths and how Nature designs our bodies upon creation, we can see that guilt, shame, and stigmatization are pointless, as they imply that we can force people to change. However, if a body and a soul’s highest mission and unique spiritual path cannot be altered, every human design should be considered equally valuable and created for a higher reason that we may not always understand. Nevertheless, we can always trust Nature, knowing she knew what she was doing, and respect her creations with equal reverence. Each of us must honor the innate skills, passions, and desires of our bodies and the truth of our hearts that connect to our souls.
We must understand why we carry specific energies to avoid being consumed by darkness and inner corruption. A person chooses to live the experience of a prostitute. Her heart understands that she was born to be a prostitute, as that was the choice of her soul. We cannot explain to others the complex mental and emotional processes that go into every decision because some decisions are made on a soul level. They may not have a rational explanation for others, but we know perfectly well why we are walking our unique paths. And we certainly cannot judge others without walking in their shoes or trying to understand their experiences through empathy and compassion. Even if a person chooses the wrong path, they still need to walk it with dignity for the higher growth of the soul, so all we can do to improve our world is support each other in our most authentic expressions.
Learning the archetypes of souls and the spiritual design of sex work together with Alex was an incredibly fulfilling experience. We knew that we could build the most empowering future for both of us if we merged our forces and our spiritual work united us in the most profound ways. I was questioning many things, engulfed in shame and self-pity for who I was, but the knowledge we discovered finally liberated me. I reconciled with the most horrible abuses I’ve experienced from men once I realized that my Mother Nature designed every single abuse to elevate my essence. The fact that Alex was so supportive in helping me find the answers my intuition demanded to uncover showed me that my entire existence on Earth led me to do this work and write about sexual healing arts.
Once, when I was still struggling to accept myself and felt exhausted from trying to prove to others the spiritual nature of sex work, I asked Alex again why he does not judge or shame me like others do. At that moment, we were still far from understanding the spiritual obligations that some souls have to endure. I guess that’s why I remember his answer very vividly; he was questioning his beliefs about sex work just like I was.
In that moment, Alex replied, “In all honesty, everything I can ever say in defense of sex work doesn’t matter. I would certainly try to explain what I know to anyone who may ever ask me the same question. But even though it’s all true, and I believe in my convictions about the spiritual design of sexual healing arts, all I need to say to you, dear Eurydice, is that I love you unconditionally. There’s nothing else I want to tell you. My love for you exists without expectations or demands for change. I love you and can’t force myself to stop loving you. Even if I were as ignorant about sex work as others, I would still love you for your essence. It’s simply impossible to fight this force of love, and I love loving you for who you are. Your experiences as a sex worker shaped your essence, and if I love the entirety of you, it means I love your profession, as it has made you who you are today. I want to discover all of you and experience everything you are, including any aspects you are trying to hide from yourself. If you truly love someone, you want to help them shine brighter with their truth. If your heart calls you to be a sexual healer, I can only support your practice. In our sacred union, I wish for us to seek shared empowerment with the help of each other’s talents.
Alex replied to my cries with words of love, and that’s all I needed to hear to embrace my healing. The answers of my beloved savior uplifted my crushed spirit. He didn’t care about the opinions of people. He wasn’t trying to impress anyone or be liked. Love was much more important than that. Even if everyone turned away from him, judging his choices, his love for me was still worth it. He lived his life by following his heart. He loved me just as intensely in other lives when I was a whore, so I knew he had no judgment or prejudice against sex work, even without understanding the spiritual design of this profession. In those past lives, he didn’t even realize that sex work was a choice of the soul, yet he still treated me as an equal and loved me unconditionally with all of his heart. I was pretty naive and foolish, as I didn’t love the beauty of my design and refused to embrace my divine nature, so I ran away from his love, believing that I was so damaged that it was simply impossible that he could truly love me, because of who I was. What’s more interesting is that his unconditional love remains unchanged even today, even though our romance has reached its end and we have closed that part of our story. We are not intimately involved anymore, but he still accepts me for who I am. I think it’s beautiful to experience the fullness of unconditional love from a former lover after sexual desires have disappeared and you have settled into the energies of friendship.
After our first conversations about the nature of sex work, I asked Alex why I felt in my heart that I was born to be a whore. I knew who I was, but wanted to understand why I was designed this way. Somehow, I intuitively felt that Alex would find my answers. I felt that Alex had a much deeper connection to sexual healing arts because he understood the intricate nuances of this calling, even without my explanations or having an awareness of the physical sensations of a female body. At times, when I would listen to his opinions on the ethics of this proffession, he sounded as if he were a female sex worker himself, and I always told him that. That understanding dawned on me once I started to share my traumas and read to him my first poems created from sex work experiences. He was very compassionate toward my pains as if they were equally his. He sensed my emotions, not just heard a stream of words. He cried when he heard how my soul cries through the rhymes. He intuitively knew everything that was true about me.
I dreamed he could help me find peace with my conflicted essence, so I could stop battling my tormenting heart. I existed between the states of fear and love, unable to understand whether I was a good or bad woman for allowing myself to live my story and follow the truth of my desires. And as we continued our journey with Alex, we finally discovered his two lives as a female sex worker. We realized we needed to study these lives in detail, as they may have the answers I sought. Soon after, it became evident that these lives contained the deepest secrets of esoteric knowledge I was always searching for. He taught me so many things about my craft, and I was surprised many times that a man was teaching me how to be an empowered woman in my natural essence. It felt weird for both of us, and he rarely felt comfortable doing that. But that’s how he was created to be, so I didn’t want him to hide his essence from me as well. So I learned from him and I trusted that he simply knows how to be a whore. When I eventually channeled the stories of the lives where he was a whore, that I would share with you in detail to present my findings of most empowering ways to do sex work, I was blown away that I was never able to attain that higher undersntanding of an essence of a whore, but he did. The truth of these two women - Astarte and Cassandra - elevated my sexual talents and allowed me to be the best whore I could possibly be. Now, it was time for me to accept the highest truth of my spiritual design. My intense desires existed to spiritually advance humanity, not just for my personal, superficial pleasures.